Lack of Motivation!

As a female I know we all struggle with self image and weight loss! Over the weekend I was uploading photos from my camera and I had forgotten about a few events that were still on the memory card from the past few months that had yet to be uploaded. Boy, do I wish I had just kept them forgotten! Looking at photos of yourself when you have gained about 15-20 pounds {not sure if it's that much since I refuse to weigh myself} in the last year is beyond depressing!

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I have always had issues with my weight and have truly never been happy with my body! I call it the female curse! I think it is extremely rare to find any female who is 100% happy and content with the body she was given. If you are part of that rare group, I applaud you for loving your body completely! That, in my eyes, it one of the best things a woman can do for herself, not just love herself, but love the body that she was blessed with. As much as I try to appreciate what I have been "aheem" blessed with I still focus in on the imperfections. 

I have NEVER had a flat tummy and this is the one imperfection, that if I could afford it, I would immediately contact a plastic surgeon to correct. It is one of the first places, besides my face, where I notice serious weight gain and no amount of sit-ups and crunches have ever made it fully go away. I noticed this weekend that it has gotten to the point, that I could probably pass for a 4 month pregnant woman after a good meal! I've never really been an exercise guru either. I've always remained active, from dance, to horseback riding, to cheerleading and soccer, but I have never had a love for the gym. I went pretty religiously for a small time in my first two years of college, but eventually fell off because I was working ALL the time. The gym is just not fun to me, neither is waking up at the crack of dawn to work out or to even go after sitting in rush hour traffic on the way home from work. I just lack the motivation! 

You would have thought wedding preparation would have kicked me in full gear to work out, but it didn't! It just didn't! My wedding dress hid all of my imperfections and I felt I had so much going on, the gym was the least of my concern. Not to mention I took some diet supplement from China {where i couldn't even read the writing on the box} to help shed some weight! The supplement worked and I lost about 10 to 12 pounds before the wedding, but  I didn't really know what ingredients it contained and after researching it, I learned it was banned by the FDA in the states. I stopped taking it after the wedding.  

Some may call me lazy, but I have a hard time calling myself that. I am a really dedicated individual! I am extremely determined to reach goals that I want to achieve, and I usually always do, except for this. I don't know if it is a mental block that I have or if I just want the easy way out, but one thing is for sure, SOMETHING HAS TO CHANGE. I refuse to allow myself to become any bigger. I want to be healthy, toned, and fit. I want to fill good in a 2 piece bathing suit. I want to look good for my husband {even though he already adores me and my imperfect body} and I don't want to be grossed out by the sight of myself in the mirror or in photos! The time is here for me to focus on achieving the goal of becoming a better me. 

Do any of you lovelies have any advice for how to gain motivation? I don't have a WHOLE lot of time in the day to spend countless hours at the gym, so ideas and motivation techniques for working gals would be appreciated too! One day I hope to be a part of that rare group that loves their entire body, I just need to take the first step to get there!! 

Hope you all are having a Terrific Tuesday! {Corny I know!} I can't wait to hear what advice and motivation y'all have to share!! 

XoXo,