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Friday, March 8, 2013

Friday's Letters!

Friday is here! Hallelujah! I feel really repetitive when I say this has been the longest week ever, but really, this one has! Not so much long in time, just crazy emotionally draining days that make the week seem to last for forever!  I need this all girls slumber party I'm attending tonight and I have no doubt it will offer copious amounts of wine too, which is quite therapeutic in my humble opinion!

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Dear PMS, You are a Bitch. Plain and Simple. You make me behave in ways that are shameful. You would think by now I'd know how to handle you, but seriously, you are different every month and I can't keep up! You make me a horrible person and I hate you! Dear Memorial Service I Am Attending Today, Please know I will be an emotional wreck. Not only is this my boss's second family loss in two weeks but it's also her teenage daughters! I can remember, like it was yesterday, losing my grandparents in high school and I was around her age. It was difficult and I was sad for so long! I'm not sure I can bare to see either my boss or her daughter this afternoon, but I hope they know how much they are loved! Dear Harris Teeter, You really make my grocery shopping experience so much fun!!! Your produce section may be my favorite part of the entire store {next to the wine aisle, of course}. You carry the most vegetables I have ever seen and some I have never even heard of! I am always eager to browse what you are offering and try new things! Tonight I grabbed some brussel sprouts along with our normal veggie staples. The hubby and I have had them before but they are not a common vegetable in our home and I've never tried actually cooking them. I'm really excited to add a new vegetable to our meal plans... that is if they come out tasting well! Dear Ballard Designs, You make my life complete! I love everything in your catalog and wish I had an unlimited budget to buy EVERYTHING and fill my home with all your wonderful goodies! I definitely hope to revamp our outside patio this summer and include some items from your outdoor collection! Dear Dancing with the Stars Season 16, I'm going to be honest with you, the only reason I will be watching you, is to support my Brit Love, Lisa Vanderpump!  She really is breaking out from The Real Housewife franchise and making a name for herself outside of the wives! With Vanderpump Rules and now Dancing with the Stars under her belt, that woman really can do it all! I am always in complete awe of her {and her closet} and I am beyond excited to see her dance her booty off!!

Enjoy your weekends, darlings!!!! See you Monday! XoXo!

Monday, March 4, 2013

Spring is Near & March 2013 Mini Goals are Here!

March is always an exciting and LUCKY month to me because it means Spring is right around the corner!! Warmer days will be here before we know it {at least in my area of the world} and I'll be able to enjoy driving around with the sunroof open and the warmish breeze in me hair! Ohhh it's so close I can almost reach out and touch it! As usual, with a new month comes new goals and new sponsors, so be sure to check out the side bar {if you are interested in sponsoring I am currently booking for April and May for FREE}! I really excelled last month and have to say I'm proud of what I was able to accomplish! Some goals were carried over in hopes to continue improving upon them! I hope March is just as stellar and productive as February.

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1. Continue to purge and organize the house, one room at a time and donate all to Goodwill. As I've said since January, this is a continuous task throughout our home! I hope to pack up a car load and drop off quite a few things to Goodwill Thursday evening! Our dinning room is a bit junkie since I have a HUGE donation pile building in there! I'd like to have my dinning room table and room back to normal!

2. Finish reconstructing my resume. This should really be a top priority to me and I hope to finalize it as much as possible, but also, to design it so that I can easily change information to fit specific career applications. I know once I finish this, I'll be more eager to search and apply to job opportunities that fit what I would like to do for the rest of my life!

3. Arrive on time to work, every morning! This will be continuous until I learn to get up on time, get myself moving and out the door and to work on time! I'll be honest, it has turned into a joke at my office but I enjoy going out for my hour lunch break and when I'm late for work I usually don't take that hour to leave. I'd like to power walk more during the week on my break or even sit in my car and read a book just to regroup and get out of the office for some personal time.

4. Stay off of the phone and computer on evenings we are both home. It is so easy to be distracted with the computer and our cell phones when we are sitting down and relaxing in the evenings together. I really want us to give one another 100% of our attention in the evenings when we are talking about our day's events, our schedule for the upcoming week, or plans for the weekend! It gives us time to unwind and connect daily without outside distractions. We can use cell phones and computers all we want when the other person is not home, is sleeping, or is not in the same room, however, when we are sitting together, talking in the same room, technology is off limits!

5. Update our iPhones. To say we are techno- illiterate is an understatement! I try to keep up, teach myself, and learn the ins and outs of the technology products we use regularly, however, for the most part it's all completely over my head! We both have had our iPhones for over a year and a half and while I did update mine once, about a year ago, the hubby has not updated his, AT ALL! He can't even access the Twitter App on his phone because it needs to be updated! I've been apprehensive to do the updates because I hear people always complaining about losing their contacts! That makes me more paranoid than it probably should! Seriously, if anyone knows how to update the iPhone without losing contacts, I'm going to need you to give me a play by play on how to perform the update! Please and Thankyou!

6. Keep a better track of our expenses. I used to be really good about keeping up with my bank account and account register but then I started using online banking and realized I could have my balance at my fingertips. When I started utilizing the online banking {and opened joint checking with the hubby}, I slowing stopped using my register, therefore I stopped keeping track of all the money I was spending. I'd like to get back to writing it all down and keeping track of it, penny for penny. It may sound a bit particular, but it'll give me a better idea on how much is going out, on what it's going out to, and what we may could cut back on to save more! I hope we can save all our receipts and I can log what we have spent daily. By the end of March we should be able to tell more about our spending habits and how to control the frivolous unneeded purchases!

7. Work on my own reactions when others are rude to me. I don't know about you but it seems here lately we've run into really rude people. People who push through doorways when you are trying to walk through the same door {and they don't say excuse me}, people who don't hold doors open for you when your hands are full or you are a few feet behind them, people who bump into you and don't say excuse me, folks who are blatantly rude and sarcastic in emails or other forms of communication, folks who cut you off in traffic and don't get the thankyou wave and when people are rude when first meeting you to the point that my husband even makes a comment at how rude the person was. Yes, the last one was definitely personal. If my husband says something about the rudeness of the person... well then... you're freaking rude! Normally when I feel I've been slighted or disrespected I am quick to make a sarcastic comment like "Really? There are 5 other doors and you want to walk through the one I am walking through?" very loudly so I know the person hears me. It's not totally nice on my part, however I think it should be brought to the attention of the person that they are, in fact, being rude! Because I know my reactions aren't always nice, I am working on not reacting and keeping a smile on my face! It keeps me from sweating the small stuff, like the person's rudeness. I do believe today will welcome my first test, wish me luck!

8. Find a cobbler/shoe repair shop to spruce up some of my damaged heels and to put life back into my Tory Burch's. For some reason I am extremely hard on my shoes. I plan to show y'all this in a post all it's own of how damaged the majority of my shoes are! My TB's are no exception. I've had them a little over a year and it looks as though they are ten years old! The leather is worn off on the toes, on the sides and on the heels, the insoles are starting to lift, and I have a tear on the inside heel of one shoe! I've loved them and worn them to death! Considering the price tag they come with it's not an option to just to go buy a new pair so I'm hoping to have them repaired and looking like new sooner rather than later! Hopefully some of my shoes aren't too far gone and they can be saved including my Tory's.

9. Keep writing honest and true posts for my readers! Last month I noticed a lot of bloggers posting about how they needed to get back to posting "real.honest.true-to-themselves-posts". While, I feel I haven't strayed from this, I do feel the need to share more of these kinds of posts! From the ones I have written and shared I have received some great feedback and support and I have made some great connections because of it! I want to continue those connections, those friendships and the support! It is inspiring to me and I hope my honest posts and ramblings are inspiring to others too!

10. Try to arrange at least one family lunch/dinner. Our family is huge! As I've shared before we both come from divorced parents where everyone has been remarried. Therefore, instead of four immediate families, we have close to eight! To have Sunday family dinner's is not something I could host, but I would love to have at least one or two families over a few times a month for dinner or afternoon lunch, starting this month! We aren't promised tomorrow and that is becoming more and more evident to me every day! I want us to spend as much time with our families as possible for we never know what the future will bring and how much time we have left with all of them!

I am really excited to have added some new goals to my list this month! I hope I haven't set myself up to fail as some of these are a bit harder than others, but I feel with my persistence and determination I can really accomplish these! Positive thoughts lead to positive results right?!

Hope you darlings are having a fantastic start to the week {I'm not going to say the dreaded "M" word}  and if you have goals for the month of March, please feel free to share!!! I'd love to form a little cheerleading group for one another!!  I am finalizing details on my Favorite Things give-away! It will be occurring this month so stay tuned! XoXo!

Friday, February 8, 2013

Friday's Letters!

It really has been one hellacious week and when I say hellacious, I mean I feel like I got in a fight with the week and the week won! I'm usually pretty excited for Friday's but I can assure you I'm not just excited... I am ecstatic it is finally Friday!! I mean, actually get-up-and-get-moving-in-the-morning type of excitement! Between a hormonal migraine lasting two whole days and zapping me of all energy, a trip to WalMart {also known as Hell on Earth}, and having to deal with a crap ton of rain this morning in rush hour... I am just OVER IT! Luckily I'm sporting my bubblegum pink Hunter wellies this morning and praying today goes by fast so I can get home to my hubby, my furrbaby, and my weekend!! The combination of wellies and prayers makes everything better!

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Dear Coffee, I think I am giving you up! Considering I only drink one cup a day and I'm not a Starbucks junkie, I don't see why I really need you. I find Chai Tea to be much tastier for a morning pick me up, Green Tea is really becoming my beverage of choice besides water during the day, and I'm really loving drinking Chamomile Tea at night to help me relax. I'm really having a hard time seeing where you fit in anymore! I love you, I do, I'm just not in love with you. Sorry I'm not sorry! Dear Self, Am I completely nuts for wanting to apply to a summer internship in NYC? I kind of feel like I am but then again, I've never done ANYTHING career related outside of the box. I've never taken a risk or a chance! I mean seriously, who knows if I would even get the internship, but how will I know if I don't try? Is it silly though to leave my hubby, furrbaby, family, and home for a whole summer for something that technically isn't even a real job?? Is it worth it?? You've got a lot of questions to answer and not much time. I think maybe I should just do it, what do you think? Dear Readers, I feel like I am starting to fizzle on topics to write about! What do you all like to read, especially from me? What is it that keeps you coming back to my little neck of the blogging woods? There are some things I don't feel comfortable blogging about {my fashion/style for instance} but in given time I hope to expand upon those subjects and branch out of my comfort zone. Until then, though, what types of subjects to y'all like to follow and read?! I need a wee bit of inspiration here! I feel as though I'm losing my blogging moe joe! Dear my American Girl Doll Felicity, I randomly think about you from time to time. How you were my very best friend for so many years of my early pre-teen life! You were seriously the best doll a girl could ever ask for! I know you are safely tucked away at mom's house but I hope to unpack you and all your accessories and clothes one day soon to reminisce about my childhood with you and to maybe even share you with my future daughter {if I am lucky enough to have a girl}! I also hope, with the help of Ebay, to finish your collection! I am quite certain there are only 5 sets of items from your original 1991 collection that I do not currently have! I have no doubt I'll pay big bucks for those sets, but I think you are plenty worth it and you'd be even more worthy with a complete original set, not that I would ever sell you! I just want to be able to say I have the ENTIRE original collection! I loved you a heck of a lot, spent countless hours playing and talking to you, and I can blame you for my love of anything and everything colonial! I've even entertained the idea of naming my future daughter after you... that's how much you impacted my childhood! Dear Special K Pastry Chocolate Crisps, You.Are.Heavenly! I really enjoy the strawberry and blueberry ones as well, since they do remind me of pop tarts, but you my dear, you rock my socks! So tasty and how quickly it helps me sooth my sweet tooth and ALL for 100 calories... as long as I don't eat the whole box! I think I may treat myself to you right now!

Happy Friday my loves! If you had a pretty crummy week as I did, I hope that your weekend is full of nothing but greatness! And if you had a pretty stellar week, well I still hope your weekend is fan-freakin-tastic! Here's to a glorious weekend and a fabulous week next week! Cheers! XoXo!

Monday, February 4, 2013

New Month = New Goals - February 2013 Mini Goals

 With a new month comes a new set of goals! Some are repeated from the previous month, especially if I did not do well at accomplishing certain ones. Listing these out 10 at a time are much easier for me to work through and putting them in print allows my readers to hold me accountable! Who wants to fail at 10 goals? Not me! Check out what I am hoping to accomplish this LOVELY month of February!

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1. Purge and Organize the house, one room at a time. Donate all to Goodwill. This is a repeat of last month! Our home is in serious need of purging and organization! I am almost willing to take photos of our disaster of a home and show you just how bad it really is, if I could ever get over the embarrassment!

2. Finish reconstructing resume. I would like to have this accomplished by the end of the month so I can really start applying to new careers! I have some serious career goals and I want to reach them within the next year, if possible! Without the reconstructed resume I don't see myself moving anytime soon!

3. Schedule actual planned date nights with the hubby! I hate saying "schedule" since it sounds like we have to fit in time or dates with each other! When I say schedule I mean, just plan fun date nights whether it's ice skating, or bowling, or even a picnic on the living room floor! Just make date nights different and not the typical dinner and a movie date!

4. Book our June trip to Jamaica. This is a MUST! I mean there are no if, ands, or buts about it! I hope to accomplish this, this week!

5. Have at least one girls night with any or all of my gal pals. I could probably count on one hand how many trustworthy girlfriends I have. However, the majority of the gals on that one hand live about 30 minutes away! Some have children which takes up much of their time! I also lead a hectic life too so getting together is more difficult than I would like it to be! These gals are important to me and I really want to make an effort to spend more time with them! I am a firm believer that family comes first {the reason why I do spend so much time with Todd and our families} but friends are important in ones life too and I need to make sure they know they are important to me.

6. Arrive on time to work, every morning! This is something that needs continual work! Out of 20 days in January I made it on time nine of those days! That is REALLY good for me if you know my track record with getting to work on time!

7. Save my bonus and then some to purchase a long coveted luxury item I have been eyeing for a few years! I will be receiving a bonus this month that I've known about it for a few weeks now. Because I have known about it I've been thinking about what to do with it! I could save it yes, but I could also treat myself to a rewarding gift. I've planned to put it to the side and save a bit more and hopefully splurge on an item I've been eyeing for a few years! If/when I purchase it, I have no doubt I will share it with you! Until then... mum is the word.

8. Stop expecting so much out of others. I know that if I stop expecting so much from others I would save myself a lot of disappointment. I'm at the point in my life where I can tell who is there and who is not. If I don't expect anything from you I can no longer be upset by your actions or lack there of! Once I accept that some people are a waste of my time and energy, the better off I will be.

9. Stay off the phone and computer on evenings we are both home. As great as technology can be, it can also be a huge distraction in relationships! How can you connect with one another when you're constantly looking at your phone or scrolling away on the computer! It really does inhibit communication when you can't put it to the side or turn it off for a few hours! I know our relationship will thank us for it! Time to unplug and truly focus on conversation with one another. Now if only I could get us away from dinner in front of the television!

10. Leave more "honey do" lists to relieve myself of some responsibilities. I am SO bad at putting everything on my plate and not delegating tasks for the hubby to handle. I have the mindset that I can do it all, when in reality, I NEED help! I have to learn that my husband is here to help me, however he can't help me if he doesn't know what I need help with! He can't read my mind as much as I wish he could! ha! I need to try harder at giving him more responsibilities with things around the house whether it's, chores, upkeep, finances, etc. When kids are thrown into the mix, I know, no matter how hard I try, I won't be able to "do it all" so I might as well help myself now to avoid a mess in the future!

What do y'all think of monthly goals?! Are any of you striving to accomplish some things this month?! You know I'm always eager to hear what y'all are up too!!! I do also hope you all are recovering well from a fantastic Super Bowl Sunday!! Come back tomorrow if you'd like to see my favorite Game Day commercials! XoXo!



Friday, February 1, 2013

January 2012 Mini Goals Roundup!

Whoa! Hey month of LOVE! It's quite fantabulous to see you! Normally, I share this current post on the last day of the previous month, but I wasn't about to give my sponsor the boot just to update y'all on my January goals! Instead, I decided I'd do it today! It's my blog, I'm grown, I do what I want! *wink, wink*

So how'd I do on my monthly goals? You tell me!

1. Get back into the gym at least twice a week! TOTAL WIN {with the exception of this week 1. because I was sick and 2. because I had a new member organization meeting last night}. I started back to Zumba on Monday nights! Thursday nights I usually would go to a Cardio Dance class, however they moved that to Tuesdays so I started doing an hour weight class! That class doesn't seem to have a huge group of followers but I've enjoyed what I've done in it so far {except for last week when they didn't have it}. I also added one day of power walking during my lunch break on Wednesdays! There is a neighborhood right next to my office building and I've clocked in 12.5 miles the month of February!

2. Purge and Organize the house, one room at a time. HALF WIN/HALF FAIL and I say this because it is an on going project that is never ever ending! Progress is being made but not nearly enough for my liking!

3. Bring/pack lunch everyday for work - no eating out. WIN {for the most part}. I brought my lunch to work every day except for 4 days this month. One lunch was spent at a meeting where I had to buy something for my famished tummy. Second lunch was because I left my good ole Lean Cuisine on the kitchen counter at home. The third lunch was because I had a lunch date with my mommy! And fourth lunch? Well that happened to be yesterday! If you follow me on Instagram {if you don't you should!} you know that my hubby informed me Wednesday that Burger King brought back their cheesy tots! My absolute weakness, so that is what my fat-kid-at-heart-self had yesterday for lunch! I hope to continue this in the month of February but incorporate actual lunches MADE at home and not the frozen meal crap!

4. Continue to work towards a career in PR, volunteering my time to businesses and organizations for hands on experience - DON'T GIVE UP. HALF WIN/HALF FAIL. I toned down the job hunt mainly because I am full blown revamping my resume. I have literally torn it a part and I am slowly putting it back together to showcase more of my talents, knowledge and education. Once my resume is finished I plan to start applying for more opportunities. I just joined a new organization in my area {I plan on doing a post about this soon} and have already been added to their PR team! I am really excited to help them more with their PR needs, gain some more experience, and network in the process.

5. Schedule actual planned date nights with the hubby! FAIL. I feel terrible I failed this one particular goal! We did have several date nights this month but they were mainly just dinners! We had a few jam packed weekends which didn't really give us date nights and when we did decide to grab dinner it was last minute thinking! Here's to hoping we can get more creative in February!

6. Book our June trip to Jamaica. FAIL. All this entails is us figuring out which days we will be headed down there and calling the travel agent to book the trip! Who knows why we weren't able to get this taken care of! This has now become a more urgent goal!

7. Have at least one girls night with any or all of my gal pals. HALF WIN/HALF FAIL. I consider this half because I did spend a day thrifting and antiquing with my girlfriend who lives across the street! Now I just need to make sure I spend some quality time with a few other special gals in my life! I will say it can get difficult with some juggling kids, work, husbands, fiances, and even school and then I am juggling all of my crazy life too! I also live about 30 minutes away from my closest gal pals which can add more insult to injury when trying to get together! Planning girl time really is important to me and I hope to work on this more this month and to show my girlfriends I really do appreciate and need them in my life!

8. Send out Thank you cards for both Birthday and Christmas gifts. HALF WIN/HALF FAIL. I sent out all my Birthday Thank you notes early in January. I  currently have half of the Christmas Thank yous written and waiting to be mailed and will finish the rest this weekend!

9. Arrive on time to work, every morning. HALF WIN/HALF FAIL. Literally I was on time for nine mornings, late for eleven mornings, I went in just for the afternoon one day and had one sick day. If you knew my track record for getting to work on time, you would know this is actually really impressive for me!

10. Keep Blogging! WIN! This was a huge win! I blogged every day and I set up new guest posters/ sponsors! I will admit, blogging is time consuming and I would really like to plan out my posts better and create them more on the weekends to save some precious time during the week nights. I'm starting to understand why some bloggers like to be paid for this hobby, at time's it seems like a second job! Nonetheless I hope to continue as long as it doesn't interfere with quality time with my little family!

All in all I am pretty proud of what I did get accomplished this month! Of course since I'm an over achiever and beat myself up a lot when I don't do my best, I think I should have done better! However, that's why there is always next month right?! I just can't give up, not even on the little things!



**Also, I am still planning "My Favorite Things" give-a-way, but had to order a few special things which won't be shipped till later this month {would've been nice to have had a heads up on that}! I promise once I get those items the contest will be underway, but more than likely won't occur till the end of the month! I appreciate all of the support and fellow friends who helped me get to 200 followers! And thank you all for following me, seriously, from the bottom of my heart, thank you! **

Tuesday, December 18, 2012

What I'm Loving Wednesday!

I was so surprised with how many bloggers actually participated in yesterday's Blogger Day of Silence in honor of the precious children and victims of the Sandy Hook tragedy! There were sooooo many of us who participated and I am so proud of the blogging community for this! Healing will happen, one step at a time, one moment at a time, one prayer at a time.

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Now that I'm back to blogging full time, I could not be more excited to get back to WILW! Ready to see my list?! Me too!!



1. All the thoughtful phone calls, texts, blog comments, instagram comments, and facebook posts I received Monday, in honor of my 28th birthday! I felt so loved and appreciated by all of you and I am extremely grateful for everyone who thought of me on my special day!

2. The plans to purge and redecorate our home after Christmas! I adore our home, but much of our decor followed us from our apartment that I first moved into 6 years ago. To say my tastes have changed is an understatement! I'm planning on going a more classic route with french influences speckled throughout! If you follow me on Pinterest, you'll see a whole board dedicated to 'New Home Decor'. Purging is a necessity! We are at max capacity in this house and if I receive one more knick knack I may just flip!

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3. My continuous effort to gain more experience in PR and Marketing to land a new job in the future! About a month ago, I finally decided I needed to beef my resume up to appeal to hiring managers and companies in the PR and Marketing field. Yes, it's what I majored in and studied in school, but they don't care about that! They want the hands on experience... and... well... I'll be the first to tell you, landing a job without the experience is nearly impossible! After mulling over ideas I finally decided I would volunteer my extra time {what extra time?} and help organizations/ companies with PR and/or marketing work! I just finished working with VOLUNTEER Hampton Roads on a campaign to help them win a $7,000 grant! Unfortunately, I floundered! Or at least I feel I did as they won 4th place, however, they did win a $2,000 grant so I assume that is better than nothing at all! I plan to continue to help them when I'm needed! I am also currently in the process of helping a local photographer as her acting PR representative. I have a lot of research and work ahead of me but I am looking forward to working with her! Lastly, starting in January, I will be helping the PR division of YAAA! Hampton Roads {Young Adults for Alzheimer's Awareness}. I know I will be extremely busy in the next few months but I am looking forward to it because I know the outcome will be more than my little heart desires!

4. The Duke and Duchess of Cambridge expecting!!! I know this news is a few weeks old but holy moly I am so excited for them!!! While I do wish they had waited a wee bit longer {so her and I could be pregnant together} after watching TLC's A Royal Baby Story I have a new understanding of the pressures they are under to produce another heir to the throne. I think for American's it is difficult to totally comprehend the monarchy, their traditions and expectations. Ultimately it is Will and Kate's decision and I think they are perfectly capable of making the decisions that are right for them! I know having a boy is preferred but I secretly {not so secret now} hope they have a little girl! It doesn't really matter what they have because of the rule change that even if it's a girl she can still take the throne! Girls rule and boys drool!

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5. The world Darling! I seriously believe I am going to make this my new favorite word, next to Fabulous of course. What is it about Dah-ling? It sounds sophisticated, endearing, eloquent! Classic as it gets! I do believe hunny is being replaced with Darling... asap! Now if only I had the English accent to accompany this beautiful word!

I hope you all are having a wonderful week so far! I've been busy starting and finishing up Christmas shopping! I have already promised myself that I will not wait this late next year! WIll NOT!

XoXo my Darlings!!!


Thursday, August 9, 2012

It's OK Thursday - Link Up!

I always participate in It's Okay Thursday when I am completely out of thoughts and ideas for a post! Sorry in advance for the lack of creativity! I've checked out for the evening! Enjoy!


Its Ok Thursdays

It's OK to...

Send belated cards for any occasion, it's better than sending none at all!

Cry, knowing you are leaving your furrbaby for the weekend! 

To be irritated when your favorite shows {White Collar} latest episode {that you missed} is not showing up in the Primetime On Demand que! 

To be patient when buying a new car... so you can make sure you get the perfect one at the perfect price!

To not wear any makeup to work except for mascara!

To be a nosey neighbor when you notice an ambulance and fire truck in front of your house!

To actually love and appreciate your managers!

To be completely excited for the Fall season!

To wear your husbands deodorant when you run out of your own! 

To love the new Old Navy commercial featuring Jennie Garth, Luke Perry, and Jason Priestley! 



That's all I've got for this evening!!!! Wishing you all a glorious Friday!!! We will be on our way to Emerald Isle around noon tomorrow but I hope to leave y'all with a wee little post before we do!!! 

XoXo,


Friday, July 13, 2012

Friday's Letters Link Up!



Happy Friday to y'all!!! Who is excited the weekend is here?! I know I am!

I am doing a new Link Up today, as I wanted to enter more Link Ups and more give-a-ways this month for my July goals! I am excited to be joining the Link Up over at Adventures of Newlyweds!! She always has lots of participants and everyone's letters are always entertaining!

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Dear Homeowner's Insurance Company, I think I may have given you a little too much information over the phone yesterday. More so that it may come around to bite me in the butt. Please be considerate to us when you come to assess the water damage and leak and DO NOT SCREW US OVER! Dear Toenails, I know I need to paint you, desperately! I hope to get to it this weekend! What color would you like to be? Maybe I should go pick up a new hue to make you feel pretty! Dear Skye {next door neighbors dog}, Look I know you are beyond glad to be home with your momma and no longer protecting your uncle's house from robbers, but can you please chill on the barking incessantly?! The past several months have been amazing for my ears, both inside and outside my home. Now that you are back I have to turn the television on volume 30 just to over power your yaps! Not to mention Baby Reef runs around in circles in the back yard when you freak out over his presence. It's annoying. Please stop! Dear Hubby, I was thinking today, when it comes to buying this vehicle we want, you are going to have to do the negotiating. I'm not good at it, period. Brush up on your skills k? Love you to pieces! Dear Dyson Animal Vac, Be prepared to get a good workout this evening! You know I haven't pushed you around since, well a month ago, and Baby Reef's shedding hair is blowing around the house like tumble weeds. Plus, I am starting to looking like I am turning into Jacob from Twilight with the amount of hair I have on my clothes at all times. This has to end. You need a workout and I need to push you around a bit more. How do you feel about that? Yea I thought so! Dear Readers, Follow me on Instagram @lhhisfabulous61111 and Twitter and keep loving me as much as I love you! AND have a fantastic freaking fabulous Friday!!!

See you lovies on Monday!!!

XoXo,

Friday, July 6, 2012

Moving On Up!

haha this is hilarious, but I hope is completely untrue for me! 
Okaaay! So I know I've mentioned a few times in the last few weeks that I recently received a promotion at work! I'm pretty excited that I now am able to tell y'all about it!! September will be two years that I have been with my company and this new position is now my third. I started as an Administration Assistant in one department and after a year there, I moved to my current department.

Yes, in my most previous position I was miserable! And I'm still not 100% sold on the inner runnings of my actual company, as the admin assistant position was in the inner department and I was able to see a lot of what occurs and what "doesn't" occur. I don't agree with it all but now that I haven't been in that department for 8 months I really can't say anything or voice my opinion. It's not my place.

So true! haha! 
My current department is ran with the utmost professionalism. My managers are simply THEBOMB.COM. I get along with them very well and see them as my work sisters and not just managers. Yea, most corporate practices say you shouldn't mix business with pleasure {and we don't} but we do chat A LOT about things outside of the office! I go to both of them a lot for advice and opinions and value their expertise in all areas! They do their job the correct way and sometimes I wonder why they aren't running the place! People from other departments come to them with questions about policies, regulations, systems, files... literally everything and they can answer it. They are problem solvers and extremely efficient. Laziness is NOT a quality these ladies possess. They work later hours if need be, they work through lunch, they work and they get their jobs done. I admire that.

Right before I left for our Annimoon, my managers pulled me into their office. They've known since New Years that I have been looking elsewhere for a career. They weren't stoked on it but they knew I would never screw them over and just up and leave and they understood I was looking for something more related to my field of study. While sitting in their office they asked me if I was still actively looking. At this point, I was looking, but wasn't applying nor was I hearing much of anything from positions I had applied to. I told them that. After explaining how my job hunt was going they told me they had a new position becoming available and that they wanted to offer it to me, but only if I was willing to give up my job hunt. I asked if there were incentives. There were! I told them I would give it some thought, talk it over with my hubs, and let them know when I returned from our vacation.

Getting out for that hour is like heaven! Even if I am just going to the post office - which I associate with hell! 
While talking it over with the hubby we both decided I needed to take it. At this point I wasn't getting much feedback, if any, from the jobs I had applied to. Who knows how long I'll be where I am? Might as well take the promotion and incentives while I am here. So that was that. I came back into work after vacation and gladly took the position. I moved my office a week later and started the position last week!

So far so good. I am now the Executive Assistant of my department and I am taking on many responsibilities from the Assistant Manager, while she is taking on many responsibilities of our Manager to help relieve her so she can manage the department better than she already does! One of my biggest tasks is endorsing Loan Notes. We, as a lender, sell mortgage loans to larger lenders, and because of that I have to endorse the note to the new lender. I also have to make sure that the original note was closed correctly, executed by the borrowers correctly, and signed and sealed by the closing attorney correctly. You'd be surprised at how many come back completely screwed up! This takes up a lot of my day as we can get an upwards of 35 files in in one day. I have to not only organize them for our Post Closers {my old position} but I have to track and update them in our computer system, determine when they are due to the big guy investors, and mail the original notes out to each investor. It's very detail oriented. There are also certain loans I have to upload into certain government systems before we can even send it off to the big guy investors. Right now it is a nerve racking position too, because if I screw up, there are consequences that could involve HUGE amounts of money lost for my company! Yea... Pressure is an understatement.

This one is sooo true... at least in our company!!! It's how I snagged my office chair! 
I do think this is a good move right now for me. There is still the stress but I have more control over that in this position, which I like. This is also great for my little family, as a promotion means more moolah in my paycheck. There is potential to advance in this position as I could move up to what my managers do or even into processing or underwriting. I'm feeling good right now but I do want to remain calm and collective. Everything is new and different right now and who's to say in 6 months I'm not miserable again? I hope it doesn't end up that way and that I remain content and fulfilled but for now I'm taking it one day at a time and enjoying this new opportunity and position that I have been blessed with!

Hope y'all are having a fantastic Friday! We don't have any huge plans except for some house projects! Yay for crossing off some goals on my monthly list! Hopefully we will get to see some family too! I'm thinking about hosting family dinners on Sundays so we can see everyone at least once a month! At least that would make me clean my house once a week!

XoXo,

Friday, June 22, 2012

It's Friday Friday, Gotta Get Down on Friday!

Now y'all have that Rebecca Black song in your heads don't you?! haha You are very welcome! Actually I now have it repeating in my head and I may want to or not want to blow my brains out now!

I want to say thank you for all the sweet supportive comments y'all left me on yesterday's post!!! It's comforting knowing I am not the only one who suffers from these kinds of fears! Y'all made me feel so much better about my own insecurities! I promise it is something I will continuously be working on and through!

Anywho I have to share this amazingly awesome news with y'all!!! One of my very own real life best buddies has decided to join the blogging community! I read her first post last night and literally thought "Tat you are brilliant"!  She, hands down, has one of the sweetest souls ever! You will definitely see this in her posts as her whole blogging purpose is to share her experience with thirty days of performing random acts of kindness! I swear you are not going to want to miss a day of it, so hop on over to Lipstick and Sippy Cups and leave Tatiana some love!!!

Yesterday I was tagged by Miss Kenj over at Silkybowties to answer {quite a few} questions about myself and share some things y'all may not know about me! I'll keep the fears at bay today and share happy thoughts!

11 Things You May Not Know About Me
 {I already can tell this is going to be harder than I thought}

1. I graduated from high school 33rd in a class of about three hundred and seventy some people, but I wasn't accepted to Virginia Tech! 

2. I am completely and utterly computer challenged! You've seen my blog page right!? Maybe if I hadn't paid a guy on my floor freshmen year with a case of beer to do my IT 101 HTML website, I may know more on how to fix my god awful page! Ooops! 

3. I am allergic to mosquitoes. Yes, I know everyone is, but what I mean is when they bite, five minutes later I have welps the size of silver dollars where they bit me! I literally swell up! And you best believe if I am in a group of people I WILL BE THE ONLY person to get attacked by those bloodsuckers! 

4. I perform my face wash routine EVERY morning and night. No matter how severely inebriated I have been at night or how rushed I am in the morning, I wash, tone, and moisturize, even if I am sitting on the bathroom floor! 

5. I may or may not have made out with my husband the first night we ever met at a high school party almost 10 years ago! {Sorry Mom and Mother in law!}

6. I rode and jumped horses competitively for almost 11 years. I miss it terribly!

7. You may have read this on my guest post at Blabbering Thoughts, but my first waitressing job, I was in fact, a Hooter's Girl.

8. Mrs. In Training and I not only went to GMU together, we worked together at Buffalo Wing University, AND best of all, we used to be roommates! I still remember when she first got lil Miss Holly who is now a big sister to Chi and Kelly's sweet daughter, Guinevere.

9.  I love the water but I really am not the strongest of swimmers.

10. I have never broken a bone in my body! Does this mean I don't live an adventurous enough life?! I beg to differ!

11. I seriously DO NOT LIKE beer. I never have and as hard as I have tried I never will. Bring on the bourbon!

Now - 11 Questions

1. What is your profession?
Funny you should ask! I'm spending all day today moving into my new office with my Manager and Assistant manager! {An office with a window, mind you} I am now the Post Closing Executive Assistant for the Mortgage Company I work for. I still don't know ALL of what I will be doing but the majority will be relieving both managers of their work load so they can do more managing and leading than the busy tedious work that has been taking up countless hours of their time! I do know I will be endorsing Loan Notes which is a huge deal! I have like 17 REALLY important stamps and a giant ink pad that give me a WHOLE lot of power! Apparently... that is what they told me yesterday! 


2. How would you describe your style?
FRUMPY! Haha that's how I feel when I don't have a lot of new items being added to my closet. HOWEVER when they are added it is a mix between Preppy/Trendy/Classic. I tend to wear lots of black but have been trying to get colorful with jewelry and fun tops. I like pearls, lace, ribbon, bows and the color pink! I love pointy toe pumps even though the new fad of "hooker heels" {as I like to call them} has found its way into my shoe wardrobe. 

3. What one make-up product can you not live without? 
Ummmm this is a trick question, because I CAN NOT LIVE with just ONE! Nope Nope! Not happening! However, if you want to see ALL of what I can not live with out, check it out here

4. If you could be besties with one celebrity, who would it be?
Easy. Matt Bomer. He is the hottest of hot, BUT he is the gayest of gay! Total best of both worlds! Be friends with the most hottest man on the planet, {next to my sexy hubby of course}, have an ultimate shopping pal and share major bitch sessions, all the while knowing NO OTHER WOMAN can have him? Sign me up! 

5. What is your dream vacation? 
What isn't my dream vacation? Definitely anywhere cold! I'm not down with lots of snow or ice or freezing temps. I can deal with an occasional snowboarding trip, but nothing more. Gimmie a beach, crystal clear water, and a cocktail with a straw and I'm golden! 


6. What magazines do you subscribe to?
None. Well unless you count the Essence magazine that comes to my mailbox monthly. Not even sure how that happened. I just take it to work the next day for my co-workers to read who can relate a bit more to it! 

7. If you could have any special talent {that you don't currently have}, what would it be?
I really wish I could sing! I'd love to be able to sing lullabies and sweet songs to my babies/children {if I ever get over the fear of having kids}. Hell, I wouldn't mind just blowing people away with an amazing voice at Karaoke. 

8. What is your favorite breakfast food?
Biscuits and Gravy, hands down. I'm a southern girl! Add some grits in there and I'm set! 


9. If you could do anything, what is your dream job?
Seriously? Erin Andrews job! If you need the back story check it out here as to WHY I don't have her job!

10. What is your guilty pleasure?
Ice cream. I love it. I can't even keep it in the house because it would be gone in one sitting. Not to mention making a decision at the grocery store on what kind to even buy stresses me out. I can't make decisions like that under such pressure! 

Onto Tagging 11 people! 
{You ladies better do this or else... or else nothing, who am I kidding?}

Callie @ The Good Life
Stephanie @ Bourbon & Glitter
Ellen @ This Hive. 
Brie @ Sophistifunk
Meghan @ More from Meg
Shannon @ Anchors Aweigh
Carley @ Suburban Sweets


Hope everyone has a fabulous FRIDAY!!! It's basically a free day for me at work considering the office move, lunch with some co workers, and a Sweet Treat Office Party this afternoon! Maybe this place isn't that bad afterall ~ until next month of course ha!

XoXo,

Thursday, June 21, 2012

Things I'm Afraid to Tell You!

A few weeks ago I was running through my normal blog reads and came across an inspiring post by Jill at Dirty Water, Dirty South! I know I’ve shared with y'all about how I want my readers to know me inside and out. Know my strengths and weaknesses, know what makes me tick and what simply ticks me off, and know that I am as honest as they come! I think I have done well so far! You learned here, at my guest post on Blabbering Thoughts, that my past was a bit bumpy. You’ve read often how unhappy I have been at my place of employment. You even found out last week that my sweet hubby got sick on our wedding day! Y'all obviously would never know any of this if I didn’t share it with you! Well I’m here to share more, unveiling some of my fears and insecurities. Fears that haunt me, inhibit me, and push me.

 ~ I’m fearful that in 20 years my husband will wake one day and leave me. I’ve seen this happen with my own two eyes. With a simple explanation of “I’m not in love with you anymore” my stepfather of 16 years left my mother one morning and never looked back. For 16 years I watched him love Jesus, love my mother, he loved me, and they had and loved my sister, but one day it all changed, an abrupt surprising slap in the face. I am terrified that one day my own sweet dear husband will wake and say those same hurtful words to me. We’ve always said if things were to EVER get to that point we will and would have discussed it and fixed it before it could ever escalate to that actual point. But there is still that fear. I mean my momma and stepfather never thought their marriage would end, especially not in such a heartbreaking way. So what would/could prevent my own husband from changing his mind 20 some years later?!

~ I’m fearful that I will never be as successful as I have the potential to be. Not to toot my own horn, but I am a smart gal. I’m extremely driven, dedicated, hard working, blah blah blah {y'all know the rest}. I like the lifestyle we live and hope one day that it can be even better than what it is now. However, I’m fearful that I’ll never make it. That I’ll never move up the corporate ladder to a position where eventually I won’t have to live paycheck to paycheck. I’m scared I will fail at being a successful independent working woman and that I will be stuck in the same spot for the rest of my life.


~ I’m fearful of becoming a mother. As much as I want to become a mother it scares me to death. Just being a puppy momma {which has given me a tiny glimpse into motherhood} has scared me! Being responsible for a human being, holy shit, that’s a crazy insane responsibility to take on in my opinion. I see kids today and want to slap their parent’s silly for the way their children behave. They are so rude to adults, to other children, and don’t even get me started on how they turn out as teenagers and then young adults! I mean, what {even if our parenting is the way it is “supposed” to be} if my children turn out to be those asshole kids?! The ones you hear yelling at their own parents, or bullying other children or God forbid even the ones who turn into mass murderers?! I mean seriously you can do everything right in the book and your child still turn out nuts! That scares the pure living daylights out of me! Simply put, I’m afraid I’ll fail as a mother in raising a respectful, smart, beautiful child.

~ I’m fearful in trusting people. I am an open book and will tell you anything you want to know {for the most part} but as far as trusting you with what I share with you, I don’t. Therefore I pick and chose wisely what I say and share with others because I don’t trust what they will say and share about it with the next person. I blame this on being burned too many times. I wear my heart on my sleeve, I love a WHOLE lot, and I would do just about ANYTHING for ANYONE, but trusting folks, not so much. I’m tired of being burned and this allows me to protect myself but it also can hinder relationships and I know that’s a problem.


~ I’m fearful of having my home broken into and being murder. It could be that I have a wild imagination, that I watch too much news, or read too many online articles about all the crazy crap happening in our world. People robbing people, people killing people, and now we can add people eating people to the list {WTF?!}. It gets to the point where I double check locks and windows in the house even though we actually live in a safe neighborhood and nothing has ever occurred to make me think otherwise. If I hear a funny noise {which I probably made up in my head} I panic and pull the sheets over my head and pray that my playful pup and half dead sleeping husband will protect me from an intruder, but because I sleep closest to the door, I’ll be the first they knock off. This “freak out” can last between 20 minutes to three hours. Yes, three hours of staring at the doorway of our bedroom, heart pounding in my ears, listening for any crash, bangs, or booms. Maybe I’m on my way to the loony bin, who knows, but it is a legit fear of mine.


So yes my lovely readers, I am only human after all! I have fears, some serious legit fears, some not so legit but they are all my fears. I struggle with them often and hope and pray that one day I can over come all of them! I hope by sharing them with y'all, it will inspire you to look more inward to your own fears and began trying to over come them as well!

Hope y'all are having a Terrific Thursday {Sorrrrry, I had to say it, considering all the seriousness I just wrote about}! One more day till the weekend! Hope everyone is staying cool and hydrated as well! It’s been quite hot in our neck of the woods!!!

XoXo,

Wednesday, June 6, 2012

What I'm Loving Wednesday!

I'm not going to lie today, I am in a really cranky mood. The last place I want to be is at this desk and in this office. I have so much to do before we leave on Saturday and I really have no idea how it's going to get done! To make matters even more frustrating I have yet to find anything to wear for our photo session! Annoyed is an understatement! I know these things are so minute but one thing I can't stand is not being able to find what I am looking for, especially for such an important trip.

Anywho, I'm trying to look on the brighter side of things, and thinking about what I'm loving today definitely brings a smile to my face!!



1. Receiving our first Anniversary card in the mail! I opened the mailbox yesterday evening to the typical junk mail but to my surprise there was a nice white envelope addressed to us from the hubby's grandmother!! It was such a thoughtful card and I was so touched that she sent us something for such a special occasion! She even included a nice little gift inside which is always a bonus! I am sure it will be put to great use on our Anni-moon!



2. Having a hair appointment tonight! Yes, I am finally getting my hair touched up after what has been like 2.5 months! My roots have grown out at least and inch and I'm feeling a bit "white trashish". I'm actually leaving work early today to head to a doctor's appointment and then my hair appointment. So that should give me something to look forward to later this afternoon!

3. New summer television premiers. Last night was a really great T.V. night in our house! I was able to watch the Pretty Little Liars summer premier, in peace and quiet, as the hubby had softball games! Ohhh the suspense of that show! Always ending with cliffhangers! Once the hubby got home, he reminded me that Franklin & Bash was premiering too! If you haven't watched that show, you should! It is a hoot, plus Mark Paul Gosselaar still has it going on considering he's 38! F&B is one show the hubby and I actually really enjoy watching together {he could give a rats a$$ about PLL or the Real Housewives of whatever city}.




4. New nail color. I've really been wanting a mint colored nail polish so last Friday I went to Sally's Beauty to check out their selection. Apparently I'm not the only Mint fan around because they were sold out, of every mint shade, of every brand they carried! Annoyed much? Yes! I really didn't want to leave without a polish as I wanted some color and pizazz on my nails, so I opted for Gumdrop by Orly! I've received a TON of compliments on it and I really love how fun it is! Not to mention this was the first time I tried Orly polish and I have to say, I'm seriously impressed!


5. My first blog give-a-way! Click here to see all the details!! I am really excited about this and can't thank so many of my readers enough for "advertising" it for me! It's amazing how awesome the blogging community is! Y'all have already become some of my favorite people in the short amount of time that I've been doing this! I am extremely humbled by everyone's kindness and support!

I hope you all are having a great Wednesday so far and are in much better spirits than I am! Just a little FYI too, I'll be guest posting over at Blabbering Thoughts tomorrow! It's my first guest post ever and I am extremely nervous, but if you want to learn A LOT more about me make sure you head over their tomorrow! I don't think you will be disappointed!

XoXo,

Tuesday, May 15, 2012

Lack of Motivation!

As a female I know we all struggle with self image and weight loss! Over the weekend I was uploading photos from my camera and I had forgotten about a few events that were still on the memory card from the past few months that had yet to be uploaded. Boy, do I wish I had just kept them forgotten! Looking at photos of yourself when you have gained about 15-20 pounds {not sure if it's that much since I refuse to weigh myself} in the last year is beyond depressing!


I have always had issues with my weight and have truly never been happy with my body! I call it the female curse! I think it is extremely rare to find any female who is 100% happy and content with the body she was given. If you are part of that rare group, I applaud you for loving your body completely! That, in my eyes, it one of the best things a woman can do for herself, not just love herself, but love the body that she was blessed with. As much as I try to appreciate what I have been "aheem" blessed with I still focus in on the imperfections. 

I have NEVER had a flat tummy and this is the one imperfection, that if I could afford it, I would immediately contact a plastic surgeon to correct. It is one of the first places, besides my face, where I notice serious weight gain and no amount of sit-ups and crunches have ever made it fully go away. I noticed this weekend that it has gotten to the point, that I could probably pass for a 4 month pregnant woman after a good meal! I've never really been an exercise guru either. I've always remained active, from dance, to horseback riding, to cheerleading and soccer, but I have never had a love for the gym. I went pretty religiously for a small time in my first two years of college, but eventually fell off because I was working ALL the time. The gym is just not fun to me, neither is waking up at the crack of dawn to work out or to even go after sitting in rush hour traffic on the way home from work. I just lack the motivation! 

You would have thought wedding preparation would have kicked me in full gear to work out, but it didn't! It just didn't! My wedding dress hid all of my imperfections and I felt I had so much going on, the gym was the least of my concern. Not to mention I took some diet supplement from China {where i couldn't even read the writing on the box} to help shed some weight! The supplement worked and I lost about 10 to 12 pounds before the wedding, but  I didn't really know what ingredients it contained and after researching it, I learned it was banned by the FDA in the states. I stopped taking it after the wedding.  

Some may call me lazy, but I have a hard time calling myself that. I am a really dedicated individual! I am extremely determined to reach goals that I want to achieve, and I usually always do, except for this. I don't know if it is a mental block that I have or if I just want the easy way out, but one thing is for sure, SOMETHING HAS TO CHANGE. I refuse to allow myself to become any bigger. I want to be healthy, toned, and fit. I want to fill good in a 2 piece bathing suit. I want to look good for my husband {even though he already adores me and my imperfect body} and I don't want to be grossed out by the sight of myself in the mirror or in photos! The time is here for me to focus on achieving the goal of becoming a better me. 

Do any of you lovelies have any advice for how to gain motivation? I don't have a WHOLE lot of time in the day to spend countless hours at the gym, so ideas and motivation techniques for working gals would be appreciated too! One day I hope to be a part of that rare group that loves their entire body, I just need to take the first step to get there!! 

Hope you all are having a Terrific Tuesday! {Corny I know!} I can't wait to hear what advice and motivation y'all have to share!! 

XoXo, 

Tuesday, May 8, 2012

Today's Playlist

I’m quite positive I’ve told y'all before how I am able to listen to my headphones while at work! The type of position I hold requires very little human interaction therefore I’m able to jam out while I’m flipping through files! Sometimes it’s a Pandora kind of day and other days, like today, I listen to my playlist on http://www.playlist.com/. Either way, I wanted to share what I am listening to today!

Trojans – Atlas Genius

They – Jem

Soft Shock – Yeah Yeah Yeahs

Big Jet Plane – Angus & Julia Stone

Sleepy Head – Passion Pit

Glad You Came – The Wanted

The Funeral – Band of Horses

Drop the World – Lil’ Wayne ft. Eminem

Lights – Ellie Goulding

Foundation – Kate Nash

Hang Me Up to Dry – Cold War Kids

Float On – Modest Mouse

Moth’s Wings – Passion Pit

Heaven – OAR

Never Let Me Go – Florence + The Machine

Such Great Heights – The Postal Service

Swallowed in the Sea – Coldplay

Disintegration – Jimmy Eat World

Tongue Tied – Grouplove

Young Folks – Peter, Bjorn, & John

Beautiful World – Coldplay

Let Go – Frou Frou

Midnight City – M83

Closer – Kings of Leon

Brand New Colony – The Postal Service

I Don’t Know – Lily Allen

Hearing Damage – Thom Yorke

Daylight – Matt and Kim

3 Libras – Perfect Circle

Aqueous Transmission – Incubus

Title and Registration – Death Cab for Cutie

Sparkle – Rubyhorse

Kissing the Lipless – The Shins

Unconditional – The Bravery

A Little’s Enough – Angles and Airwaves

District Sleeps Alone Tonight – Death Cab for Cutie

Scream – Chris Cornell

I know it’s not a huge post today but I’m running on “E”!!! Check out some of these songs and add them to your playlist!! They all are pretty rad! Be sure to let me know if you dig them or not!!!

Hope you all are having a fabulous Tuesday and week so far!! See y'all tomorrow for What I’m Loving Wednesday!

XoXo,